| Because I can |
[13 Mar 2009|07:36am] |
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Updating to fulfill this urge to write.
My play's getting produced. Hurray! Not one I particularly like, but it's good. No royalties for it; my teacher says he doesn't want to ruin the class's chances of selling plays off for real money. I don't mind. Experience is experience.
I'm leaving in September. That's 6 months away. I want to have a fantastic life until then because it will probably be a while for me to adjust to a new life over there. By that time, I may forget what friendship is like.
My rat's name is Peeta and he likes corners. And hiding in my hair. And he hates his bedding. Darn upper class rat; I think he wants me to buy him the good stuff. Spoiled from Petsmart, I swear.
I'm working 26 hours a week. That's a little bit less than me working at the vet and it seems infinitely shorter. I'll be sad when tax season's over because I kinda don't want to go back working full time at Colima. Too hectic. But I need to save money. College is expensive and I never qualify as "financially eligible."
Dr. Sam's a riot. He really is.
Only in California are the mornings freezing and the days bright and sunny.
Have a wonderful day.
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| Update |
[09 Feb 2009|11:22pm] |
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Little Tiny Mustache | Stephen Lynch |
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I've been wanting to update for a while now, but seeing as how I'm either too lazy, too busy, or just not in the mood, there hasn't been much veg writing. There's been a lot going on lately and I feel that I'd better capture what I'm going through right now before I find myself wandering again.
The trip to Vegas left me exhausted today. It put me in a more snappish mood all weekend, but Steven was probably the only one who got the blunt force of the annoying me. I wouldn't mind doing it again because it was nice being able to see Debra and hang out with her for a weekend. I really like my aunt and uncle's place; it's small but homey. I feel bad not being able to properly thank them before I left, but playing poker and drinking Hypnotic all night has got to take a toll on the body at some point. We need to be able to figure out how to get her back for a longer amount of time.
I am finishing up my play writing class and it makes me sad. I really like SAC's theatre group, or at least the cool kids from my class. They really like my plays; it makes me feel all the better writer and gives me hope that I might actually one day be able to hone my skills well enough to publish. That would be the dream. I am anticipating the coming weeks because my professor will be emailing the class to let us know which plays will be produced for next year's Winter show. I would definitely love to see that. We read a couple of plays today, one of them being my last one. People laughed. I shivered because I was cold. The class left me with a warm, fuzzy feeling.
Going to the vet's this morning felt like trying to think really hard with a hang over. I was fatigued and it doesn't help that, despite a failing economy, people still show up to the office in hoards. I especially love some of the stories people try to give us: "I won't get money until next week so can I just add this balance to my already existing bill?" or my personal favorite, "I'm friends with the neighbors of the cousin of one of your long time clients. Can I get a discount?" People need to stop buying animals if they can't afford them. Not only that, I think it's ridiculous seeing low-income Mexican guys spending their tax returns on ear crops for their Pit bulls. Just awful. Anyway, this morning was greeted with an emergency from the kennels down the street; one of the dogs was suffering from hypothermia. Unfortunately, a Spanish-speaking cleaning lady and I are the only ones there until about 9, leaving me trying to put an IV into a dog whose veins had constricted so as to preserve the vital organs. Not only that, her body temperature was so low the thermometer couldn't make a reading. I was finally able to get a reading of 84 degrees about 4 hours after it came in; the normal temperature for a dog ranges from 100-103. And her tongue felt like ice. I hope she's still alive tomorrow.
I'm upset that I lost points on a calculus test because I simplified an integral when I didn't need to simplify. That's stupid.
I got accepted into SLO. I'm excited. Honestly, I'm at a sort of loss for words because it just seems like such a long time before I'm able to get up there. But at least this gives me something to do; now I can spend my spring vacation planning out where to live, what to take, and what I plan to do with my car.
I love planning.
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| Choices |
[22 Jan 2009|04:14pm] |
I wish I was more decisive. Maybe then I'd make smarter choices. I feel low.
I think I understand why I'm a workaholic. It's to drown myself in this state of not knowing anything. This way, I don't have to think, just react.
Sigh.
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| Hello operator |
[13 Jan 2009|08:20am] |
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Three Balloon | Stephen Lynch |
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( Survey )
I'm pleased with this semester at school. I'm kinda sad that I don't work at the vet's anymore, but thrilled that I have so much free time on my hands. I hate aim express. I like spending time with friends.
Lots of things to happen this week. I can't keep everything straight really, but I'm enjoying the rate at which the week passes by. Let us continue then, shall we?
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| Well Received |
[08 Jan 2009|04:27pm] |
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Hit Me With Your Best Shot | Pat Benatar |
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A well received first play is a good start for me. My confidence has boosted tenfold. People say it's hard to live up to expectations the second time around, but I know I can do this. I'm feeling oh so good.
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| Writing |
[06 Jan 2009|05:27pm] |
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Eye of the Tiger | Survivor |
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I will be writing ten minute plays for class. It excites me. But I'm afraid my ideas are neither clever nor impressive. I know I can write better than a lot of people, but I'm a failure if I can't get the words right on paper. Here I go. I want to do this more than anything.
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| One more year gone? |
[31 Dec 2008|04:57pm] |
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I'm Gonna Be | The Proclaimers |
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Does time really happen? I looked back on past LJ entries because I wanted to know if I ever had a resolution list. Finding that I didn't, I noticed my first entry for this year is "I want to remember." Didn't I just write that? Or have I been saying it so much that it seems recent?
My dog ate some popcorn that my dad had left on the table. Poor, poor kidney failure pooch. Old habits are hard to break and apparently a week of hospitalization taught her nothing.
I dislike not breathing. Suffocation would be a horrible way to go.
A couple of more days left until school starts. I still have too many errands to get done first. Vacation is overrated unless you do something that you really want to do. I enjoy the company of friends.
For the upcoming year, I want to complete a story that was started years ago. I want to learn how to play the guitar. I want to take a road trip with friends and snowboard. If there's an opportunity to visit another country, I want to do it. I want to watch some more plays this year and go visit Debra and watch more plays with her. I want to play baseball.
If there is one thing that live has pounded into my head, it's that wanting is pointless. I can want the world, but it still takes work to receive.
College needs to start for me. Real college. I need to get out and gain some experience in living like there is eternity in front of me. What does it mean to be a teenager? What does it mean to be an adult?
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| Playing Doctor |
[04 Dec 2008|07:26am] |
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Susanne | Weezer |
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Rapid weight loss and my mom tells me my dog is drinking a lot of water. I take her to the vets because I think she has liver or kidney damage. I draw blood and 20 minutes later it's confirmed. Her kidney levels are 4 times more elevated than what they should be. I tell my ex-coworker I've had her on a prescription diet for a couple of months and she's surprised that her kidney got damaged. After 13 years of eating chocolate, Vietnamese sandwiches, and food she really shouldn't have, her body is finally responding. Funny how the blood test I ran last year was normal. I have her on a kidney enzyme and antibiotics because she severely needs a dental. I'm such a bad pet owner.
If you have a dog, don't feed it Pedigree. I will punch you in the face for it.
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| If I fell |
[02 Dec 2008|08:38pm] |
If I fell, would you bother to catch me?
Or would you hold me so tight that I wouldn't fall in the first place.
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| Dreamland |
[20 Nov 2008|09:28am] |
I can't get this dream out of my head. It's a story I want to tell, but I have this sneaking suspicion that I'm just going to mess it up. Take the risk or just let it fade away?
I have no courage anymore.
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| Words |
[15 Nov 2008|09:46pm] |
It felt so natural, easy as if that one moment broke down that block that had me locked in frustration.
Too bad it had to come to this.
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| round two |
[07 Nov 2008|11:49am] |
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It doesn't help if all I'm doing is guessing.
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| I don't get it |
[06 Nov 2008|09:13pm] |
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Cold Dark World | Weezer |
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Please someone explain to me
This feeling of uncertainty.
Oh hesitation, seething well,
Pricks and burning, doubts that dwell,
A heart that beats unevenly
(It's good and strong, seemingly).
The noise is much too loud to hear.
What is this ringing in my ear?
Where am I? What is this mess?
The facts elude me, I must confess.
Here it is now, blurry sight.
Too late. It's gone. Adieu. Goodnight.
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| The Weekend |
[03 Nov 2008|12:45am] |
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Unforgettable | Nat & Natalie Cole |
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I actually feel a little more relaxed than I should. This probably has to do with the fact that I don't have a lab report due tomorrow, I've procrastinated on my homework until tomorrow, and I spent the day hanging out with Steven.
I feel good. One letter left then filing to do.
I'm loving daylight savings. I'm loving the rain. I'm loving this moment. I'm loving him.
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| The internet hates me |
[30 Oct 2008|10:08am] |
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Mr. Brightside | The Killers |
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Internet is down both at Steven's and my house. Not fun at all. I finished part of my project way sooner than I expected so now I'm just sitting around at school. I want the weekend to come already.
Nothing is moving forward. I want a little change.
I should go get something to eat. Le hunger.
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